Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Friday, February 24, 2012
Yesterday was a bad day.
I normally take the shuttle to my school and leave my car in the building’s parking lot. Sometimes I go days without using my car, trying to save money on gas. I looked out the window as the shuttle passes my car. I do this every few days if I haven’t drove my car for a few days because last year I got two flat tires within the same week (I got paranoid and thought someone was out to get me, lol). So I got into the habit of staring at my tires. This time I notice some glass near one of my back tires. I guess some drunken idiot was walking around the parking lot with a bottle of Jack and dropped, or smashed it on the ground next to my car. I think it was smashed and not dropped accidentally because I tend to think the worst in drunken people. I’m 23 now and I still have not gotten super drunk yet. A little buzz, yes, but never drunk. I guess this means I’m boring? I really do want to know how it feels to be drunk… someday.
Any ways, I’m 100% sure that it was one of the other students that live in my building. My car was parked right at the door way area, so they would have seen it the next day. I feel every disappointed in the person who did this because they didn’t clean up the glass in the parking lot. Now I have to go clean it up before driving off or else it will mess up my tires.
Later in the day, I was doing some homework when I heard some odd noise coming from the hallway of my apartment. There was water coming out of my ceiling! I called maintenance over asap. The guy who came took a quick at it and said, “I’ll go up to see if the boys upstairs flooded their apartment. Not like they would tell me the truth anyways.” He was right. The boys above me told me nothing happen, and that they only had a wet towel on the ground. We knew that was a lie because no towel from a shower could have so much water in it to go thru the floor and into my ceiling. The guy told me he was 100% sure they flooded their bathroom floor because it seem a little wet he was there. The boys upstairs just didn’t want to get in trouble. An hour later he cleaned up the ceiling and carpet for me. The maintenance guy also told me not to be surprise if it happens again. L
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Yesterday I went shopping for a bridal bra/bustier to wear under my wedding dress. I went to a few different places to compare the fit/cost. I usually wear a size 32B (small, I know) but every sales lady I went to put me up in a Acup (like I wanted to feel any smaller) ….. it was like a slap in the face. Its ok, I gave them a slap back when it didn’t fit as well as the B cup dose. I can squeeze into an Acup if I wanted to make the girls pop out a little more, but this was for my wedding day so I wanted to be more comfortable and tasteful.
I think the worst part was of the whole day was when I went to this little bridal shop at the local mall. There were only two ladies in the shop, the owner said hello to me when I came in and then sat at the computer the rest of my time there. The other lady was just an employee, middle age, nice, quiet, but she didn’t look like she takes good care of herself, she had messy hair and yellow teeth. Keep in mind that I got this all within the first five minutes of knowing her.
A few minutes later she had already seen and help me put on 3 different bustier, so I guess we got a little comfortable with each other and we started some small talk. She asked me where I went to school, I told her, she said “oh that’s where I went”. Then she asked me what my major is, I told her biology, and on her way out the dressing room, she said while laughing “oh, ha ha ha, that was my major too”, and she shut the door. It was like the biggest slap in the face I had in a long time. I stood there in stock for about 5 seconds, scenes of what my future would be like if I could not get a job related to my major. I am about to graduate in 2 ½ months and I have no idea what to do with myself. In 2 ½ months from now I would become a real adult, one that has to get a job, make money and all in a way that doesn’t make my degree look like a waste of time and money.
Every person I know that was a biology major has become doctors, pharmacists or went on to get their Ph. D and became a professor. All my bio-major classmates now are all telling me that they plan to do the same things with their degree. I always feel like I am the only bio major that doesn’t plan to go to a grad school after graduation. My professors and classmates always tell me not to worry and that people with my degree still get good well paying job. But I never saw one in real life. Here in this small little bridal shop, standing in a bra, there was a picture of what my future could look like. Would I become a sales woman in the mall? What’s the different between her working in the mall from a teen working in the mall as a summer job? I know for sure that not all of the students who apply for medical school get in to medical school, but they all do have a 4.0 GPA or close to it. I don’t have anywhere near a 4.0! So if those kids a going after the same jobs I do, they would totally get it! Is that what happened to the sales woman? Or did she choose to work here? At the end of the 5 seconds of stock, I calmed down a little, but I was so scared of what my future would be like…
Bra shopping is rough enough on a girl, why did this have to happen too.
At the end of the day, all the shops were way too expensive. I took pictures of the tags which had the brand written on it, and I went home and got a bustier online for almost half the price.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Friday, February 10, 2012
I’m going on the pill. I’m getting married soon and there are lots of things I need to do to prepare for the wedding, like flowers, dress, cake, invitations, and all the other little details that are driving me crazy. I also have to prepare for being married and being someone’s wife, like cooking, and….. sex…. Yes I said it….sex.
I did a lot of research to make sure I knew what the pill would be doing to my body. I learned a lot of interesting facts about birth control and all its forms. Here are a few of the facts that I would like to share with you. The pills are hormones, so its going to take a while for your body to get use to them. Most of the pills will help with acne, but it will take a while, your body may even get a little confuse with the changes in your body and break out! My wedding isn’t until June but I wanted to start taking the pill now so that my body has time to get use to them, so I can make sure my skin is clear, or any weight gain is under control, oh yeah some girls gain weight on the pill too. There a lot of facts everyone should know before going on the pill, I don’t have time to list them all, everyone should do their own research, understand the pros and cons. And yes, there are different cons for every person.
I decided to go on the pill. So now where do I get them? I don’t have any insurance and I just don’t have the kind of relationship with my mom to ask her to take me to the doctor, we’re very asian like that, sex is never a topic, even if I’m getting married. I always envy those mother-daughter relationships where they can talk about everything. I think I’m going to try and make sure my future kids know they can always talk to me about anything. Anyways, back to the present day. So if you live in the states you know about Planned Parenthood. It’s a low cost and/or free health clinic for young people. They take care of everything related to sexual health and they offer free/low cost birth control, all kinds.
But lets be honest, when I think about Planned Parenthood I think about horny teens who have to go there because they think they have an STD or they got pregnant. It almost feels like a shameful place to go to. But I knew I had no shame, I’m a good girl, I’m in love with someone and I wanted to share my love with him in the ultimate way, and I’m being responsible enough to make sure we don’t get pregnant when we’re not ready for it. I told myself that even thought there would be sluts hanging around Planned Parenthood, there would be other girls like me there too. I sucked up some pride and made an appointment.
Yesterday I went in. They handed me a lot of papers to fill out and I took a seat. I don’t know if every clinic was the same or not, but the one I went to looked horrible. The dim lighting, old chairs, old magazines, free condoms next to the door, and flyers about sex, AIDs, and all other STDs put all the shame back into me. It made me feel like they didn’t care enough about the girls in the waiting room to take care of the clinic. Everything looked old and dirty. The other girls sitting around me didn’t look at each other and even though I tried not to judge them, I failed. I’m only human ok, I’m sorry. And even though I tried my best to put my ring in sight, and put my good girl face on as best that I can, who was I kidding, they couldn’t tell what kind of person I was just like I couldn’t with them, so they probably judge me too. So I sat there, keep my head down and waited for my name to be called and hoped that no one I knew saw me there. I really wish that they would update there waiting room so we feel like it was just another doctor’s office.
When my name was called I walked in and got checked out by the doctor. I have to say that I felt better when I came inside and talked to the doctor. The doctor asked me very personal questions that I was proud to answer. It made me feel good to let the doctor know what kind of person I am before she got “personal” with the rest of me. She was really nice to me. But to be honest, I don’t know if she would have been so nice to me if I told her I was a slut. I felt like she was happy to meet a young girl there who….ummm….well just a good girl for once. I was happy she was nice to me but what if I was a slut? Would she still be nice to me? As much as Planned Parenthood tries to advertise that they don’t judge people, there is always some judgment, I was just lucky to get the good kind. No, wait, I wasn’t lucky to get the good kind, I earned it! The world is not fair girls. We get judge, even by other women.
In the end I got my pills and walked out as fast as I could. After the wedding, I’m going to go to somewhere else for my pills, hopefully I’ll have insurance by then. The Planned Parenthood clinic is really helpful to have around but it such a depressing office.
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
Last class of the day is over……Yeah its Friday!!!
That means I don’t have to think about any school related stuff for the rest of the day. And my favorite thing to do after my last class of the week is to make some of my favorite things to eat. I love cooking. Today I made a pizza, I love pineapple pizza the most, but I had some extra pepperoni around. Its so easy and fast.
Everyone should try making your own pizza, there are lots of how-to videos on youtube if you need help.
I try not to drink soda but pizza+soda=classic American lunch.